it’s because i have time now, in these stolen hours in which
tree shadows stretch across the windows and outside, and
the air is just starting to drape itself in cold and to exhale its fog
into the golden streetlamp glow.
Anti-tyger Anti-tyger, burning bright,
In the anti-forests of the anti-night;
What immortal anti-hand or anti-eye
Could frame thy fearful anti-symmetry?
In the rain, eat pistachios
The girl with the red dress, hands me a lily
Secrets of the house—of the blouse—of the bruise
I begin eating them and them and them: flax seeds
We cannot live in mud of melancholy
Like a sticky hot bun, this is all...
The things we do to keep alive:
Whisky, weed, write & lie.
We settle, we deny, we Play-Boy.
We work & sleep & hunt to avoid
the final gasp, life’s last sigh.
I mind the peak cabin with vistas in all directions
need fire humming here and nowhere in particular
while you dip a toe into icy time flow finicking a door
When I see the roots of a tree bleed
through the ground, now I say they are the veins
of my grandmother's hands, spilling upward.
I recall the tender bruises up and down her arms
I knew he’d never kill anything and it wasn’t that
I thought you wanted that deer to get killed but I had suspicion you
did not care either way and that indifference made me more sick but