It’s March. The earth is dirge-soft with daffodils.
The rain goes through seven stages of grief.
When I was a girl, the first daffodils I ever planteddied. I picked them and buried their yellow bodies in our yard.
Now my heart shrinks, leaving the ache of a large seed.The sky sorrowful with weather.
We plant ourselvesin the pub she loved, dippingour grief in beer.
The man at the bar is someone I recognize.Someone I went on a date with once.
His hands shriveled around my waist. I shrunkback in the earth. Turning white with winter. Until he sparrowed away.
Now another season dies.The bar a sepulcher, faces shimmering
bulbs, swollen with tears, worms workingtheir way towards a communal end.
Outside larks nest together. The wasp diesinside its hanging garden grave.
I become bulb without bud, my eyes closing,wet to sunlight.
Across the bar the man from the terrible date resurrects himselffrom the mud-slick stool.
I track myself like a season. How many flowerings left. How many seeds.The skin turns yellow with wondering.
Time to make amends with the earth and what it offers.
I lift my glass, open casket catching the lightof the half-empty moon.
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