you have it in your bone, a penchant
for relevancy. we talk a, b, c and d.
you are a wall, we don’t go to e.

in the thick of a saturnine verse, there
you barge in. a sticky note of glaze.
balmy.  words smell summerly.
it’s a battle to ward you off.

earlier in my verse, i made us to sit
at the edge of your cliff-house.
evening light quietens a-b-c-ds, deodars.
and then i let us topple over,

off-guard, down the wall.
grasses softening us back and forth,
                                            back forth.
we are two cobblestones, scooped-out of
verse, rolling down to drink the river.

                                            stop.
                                    quell the yearn.
                                            hold the wall
high against tender things.

                                            i retreat.
three steps back in my verse,
one step towards the wall.
being sad.
being happy.
i am vulnerable                in-between.

this is how I fall, back and forth,
                                            back forth,
                                 back
                                            forth…

you are relevant to
my porous bones,
the ‘e’ things in my
unfettered verses,           this side of
                                            the wall.

(deodar : Himalayan cedar)


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Chayanika Saikia

Dr Chayanika Saikia is a Pushcart Prize (Poetry) 2024 nominee & winner of Glass House Poetry Award in 2024. Her work has appeared in The Aleph Review, Yearbook of Indian Poetry (2022), The Hooghly Review (accepted), Muse India, Petrichor, PikerPress, Scent of Rain (anthology), Usawa Literary Review, Setu, EKL Review, hākārā, The Wise Owl, Cafe Dissensus, Parcham, The Little Journal of NE India & in others. Chayanika works as a Geoscientist for a National Oil Company in New Delhi.